I'm so tired of war. I'm tired of conflict. I'm tired of feeling like I am in the mud and somebody keeps shoving my face in it, and then woohoo I get a new camera and I forget the mud, and then splurgh, I take a big gulp of it and choke.
Can I be like a child. Can I learn to play despite the tank. Can I learn to be thankful despite the poverty of hope I feel at the moment? Thankful like a child feels for the rest he finds cupped in his pappa's arms? I don't know.
Mi Pappa, help me to see that you are bigger than me, that you can hold my hand, and you can hold me steady when I flail around trying to do my own thing.
I'm so tired of war. I'm tired of conflict. I'm tired of feeling like I am in the mud and somebody keeps shoving my face in it, and then woohoo I get a new camera and I forget the mud, and then splurgh, I take a big gulp of it and choke.
Can I be like a child. Can I learn to play despite the tank. Can I learn to be thankful despite the poverty of hope I feel at the moment? Thankful like a child feels for the rest he finds cupped in his pappa's arms? I don't know.
Mi Pappa, help me to see that you are bigger than me, that you can hold my hand, and you can hold me steady when I flail around trying to do my own thing.
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WAR IS HELL
and i'm glad you have someone in the trenches with you.....
love, kathy
ps. daniel 9:26b "war will continue until the end"
BUT the great news....there is someone in the fire with us!
"i see four men walking around in the fire, unbound and unharmed, and the fourth looks like a son of the gods."
Matthew,
May the Lord be your shield and banner. This is truly not our home, is it?! That groaning is so deep, and he knows and LOVES - I can't wait to go home.
I'm sorry I missed your calls!! I definitely want to hear about YOU and support stuff! Do you want to talk either tonight (after 7) or tomorrow in the evening any time? I can call you too, if it's easier!
oops, sorry I forgot to sign the above.
love, Rachel wa
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